This is probably going to come off sounding pretentious and like I'm suffering from ~special snowflake syndrome~, but I have a really, really hard time relating to other people with anxiety disorders. I've been in-patient once, partially hospitalized twice, and attended two out-patient CBT workshops, and I have yet to find a single person with an ( Read more... )

K well. On a worse note, I'm starting that school thing on the 28th, which I'm completely fucking not ready for. I feel kind of stuck and like.. I don't know. I really really feel like Dr. Lidstone bullied me into it really, like. I just don't think I could have told her any more forcefully than I've been telling her that I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS. I ( Read more... )

I was talking about this topic a little bit with Tara and I realized that I've never made a post about it. In light of recent events regarding Brandon and certain friends, I feel like it's important for me to explain some things about my personality. I suppose I'm really just writing it to myself, though, because it seems like the only way I can ( Read more... )

Went downtown today and got registered for classes in February at the adult high school on Merivale. I decided to start with only one class to sort of ease myself into going back so that it's not as big of a shock to my system as it would be if I just started going back with a full schedule. They're actually not supposed to let anyone take less ( Read more... )

This sort of 'cutting-bad-people-out-of-my-life' thing feels really good (even though most of it was unintentional). On a bit of a (t)roll here, I think. At this point in my life I just really need to be selfish and not sit here and put all my energy into fixing everyone else's problems when I can't even deal with my own (i.e.: Lisa Bernard, great ( Read more... )

I just got.. the weirdest.. I don't know. For a good ten-minute chunk where I wasn't doing anything but chatting and.. and thinking--I got the weirdest sense of like.. depersonalization. I always read it in lists of symptoms of mental illnesses and shit, but it never happened to me so I just crossed it off as one of those things that happens to ( Read more... )

K, I was really pissed off earlier, and now I feel like a fucking douchebag, but I'll rant about it anyway because it still pisses me off; I only really feel like a dick for reacting poorly to it. I definitely could've handled it better.

I guess to start with I have to explain that it really, really bothers me when people drop by unannounced. ( Read more... )